My SSS Present Arrived!

My SSS present arrived this past weekend and I was so excited! I love getting package slips at my apartment and I quickly ran downstairs to grab the package.

It was filled with all kids of goodies:

My SSS Present

My favorite candies, tons of stuff to do my nails with, lip balms, and delicious body lotions!  I can’t wait to make myself my own little spa day!

A huge thank you to my SSS friend Weeksie for all these wonderful gifts!  You’re a doll!

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I’m now in Ohio for the holidays and will return in early January.  The blog will probably suffer, it happens.  :p  But have a great holiday everyone!

Mind Games

About 8 months ago I visited my dermatologist to get the once over on all my spots, etc. (I was convinced to go after a Glamour article totally freaked me out of my mind and made me think I was going to die) Every time the dermatologist would tell me “Oh, this is a *insert some long medical term* my only question to him would be “Okay, but am I going to die?!”

I’m sure he thought I was pretty crazy but he finally stopped telling me about everything and just told me that I was fine and wasn’t going to die. However, I did have a small cyst on my upper back and he told me it was nothing to worry about but to let him know if it got bigger.

Well, it’s on my back so I don’t really look at it often but this weekend I noticed that it was definitely bigger. Last night I lost it. I totally freaked out. My mind started wandering and went from “what if the doctor was wrong” to “what if this is cancer” to “I’m going to die” to “there’s so much more I want to do in life” to “I’m going to miss my Husband so much!” I started bawling uncontrollably, going through a whole box of tissues. I know that this is crazy and I know that it’s probably still fine but I’m freaking out.

I called the doctor this morning and he had an opening for 2pm this afternoon so I’m going down there. I’m leaving town on Saturday though and won’t be back for a few weeks so I’m hoping that if they need to take it out they can do it today, right away, so I don’t have to dread coming back.

I’m a squeamish person and the thought of needles scares me silly. I just want this taken care of. Please send me good thoughts.

P.S. Sorry for the overuse of “totally freaked me out” but I’m not thinking straight today.

Update
I went to the derm and I’M NOT DYING! Yay! But I do have to go back on Jan. 28th for a small surgery to remove the cyst. Boo. Anybody have this done? How bad is it?

Budget Holiday

Christmas is really big in my family. Like, a thousand dollars on gifts big. The tree always has heaping piles of presents under it and then tend to spill out into the hallway. This year though we have to scale it down a bit. It’s costing me so much money just to fly to my Mom’s for Christmas that we’ve instituted a $100 & 3 gift per person rule.

I’m actually having even more fun with the gift buying this way. It really makes me think about what I want to get people. I’m very excited about what I’ve bought so far and I’m excited about the possibilities of what I’ll buy next. The only downside is that I feel like it will be terrible if I get someone something they don’t love since they’re only getting 3 gifts from me. There’s this thing I want to get my Mom, and I think it would be good for her but I’m not sure she’ll actually like it. I’m debating whether to get it and hope she does or to go a safer route.

Either way, this is going to be a great Christmas. I’m looking forward to some snow (hopefully!) and baking cookies, and shopping with my Mom. I’m looking forward to hanging out with my brother (if he can peel himself away from his girlfriend for one. freaking. second.) and snuggling with my doggie.

Awww…yay. Now I’m all sentimental.

P.S. Does anyone else have a hard time getting into the holiday spirit when it’s 80 degrees outside and you have no hope of snow? I miss living somewhere where it snows this time of year.